Authenticity
vs. Duplicity
Psalms 51 is a prayer of honesty. It's
easy to fool people but you can't fool God. I want to be the real
deal. Life is short. Last week I stated that if you are
18-years-old you have a life expectancy left of about 55 years.
That statement scares me because I'm 46. So, I want to have, in
this short life, an authentic relationship with God. It is so
easy to kind of hang out at the surface and be superficial. You
go through all of the motions but you never really connect with
God.
Have any of
you ever been there? You go through the motions but you never
really connect. And it gets dangerous because you live that way
for so long you forget who you are and you forget whose you are.
And like David, king of Israel-about 970 B.C., you get into
something ugly that you never dreamed you'd get into. He had an
affair with a woman named Bathsheba and it got so ugly that he
ultimately had her husband killed.
I. Trust
God's Love
II Samuel 11:27
27: After
the time of mourning was over, David had her brought to his
house, and she became his wife and bore him a son. But the thing
David had done displeased the Lord.
And then he got what I call "Spirit
Stupid." After what he thought was the appropriate time, he
married the lady and brought her into the palace, thinking
something like 'no one is ever going to know.' We'll look like we
did this God's way.' He overlooked one thing, here it is. Here is
what the Bible says, "The Lord was very displeased with what
David had done." We forget that sometimes. You can never
know the fullness of life outside of God's pleasure. So, David
was miserable because there was a wedge between David and what
David needed the most - a relationship with God. Finally David
gets honest.
Psalm 51:3-4
3: For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
4: Against you, you only, have I sinned and done
what is evil in your sight, so that you are proved right when you
speak and justified when you judge.

That's what this Psalm is all about. Look at
verses 3 and 4 with me. I love it. He says, "I recognize my
shameful deeds." MY! You know it is so easy for us to
rationalize that a lot of times we have a lot of good excuses for
the things we do. Well, I haven't loved my wife for a long time.
Or, my wife didn't really give me what I needed. You know all
kinds of reasons as to why we blame someone else. Getting honest
means you use the word 'mine.' I recognize my shameful deeds.
And then
notice what he says next: He says, "My sin is ever before
me." Now 'sin' is not a popular word. Call it what it is.
You know what sin is? It's either God and God's perfect will for
your life or it is no good. There is no in-between. So, anything
that is not God and God's perfect will is sin and David says,
"My sin is ever before me." Do you know what the key is
to getting below the surface in your relationship with God? It
begins with getting honest. It begins with saying, "God I am
not where I should be." Friends, I urge you to move out of
your comfort zone. The reason it's the same old-same old, is
because you're on the surface. It begins with saying, "Oh
Lord, I'm not satisfied with where I am. I want to go beyond I
want to get deep I want to go to the bottom of where I am
supposed to be with you." Now, David could risk getting
honest. Honest hurts. David could risk getting honest because he
trusted God's love.
Steadfast Love
Look at that first verse. And, if you
are following in the Bible, mark it. He says, "Oh Lord, have
mercy on me according to your steadfast love." Do you see
that part? That's the part you need to underline. Steadfast.
Steadfast means stand fast. It means God is not going anywhere. A
couple of weeks ago during a Worship Celebration, I asked some
kids, "Who is your best friend?" Now, here's how you
can tell who your best friend is. Your best friend is the person
who will die for you. Now I don't know how many people who will
die for you, but I guess there are only a couple. They may be
sitting next to you - mom and dad. Mom and dad are the only
people on earth who are willing to die for you. A lot of times
your parents will die for you before they will die for each
other. What is it within us? It's inherent. Do you know what that
is? You're like your heavenly parent.
Hebrews 7:25
25: Consequently
he is able for all time to save those who draw near to God
through him, since he always lives to make intercession for them.

That's what God is like. The Bible says God
demonstrates His great love towards you and I. And yet while we
were still sinners, Christ died for us. Can you believe that?
While we were still sinners Christ died for us. A lot of times
people think "Well, God can never really love me and get
involved in my life until I get my life together." No! God
loves you before you ever get your life together. God was chasing
you before you could even spell His name. Steadfast means God
stands with me PERIOD! Regardless of what I've done, where I've
been, or where I'm going. Oh Lord, have mercy on me according to
your steadfast love.
When I was
4-years-old, I was outdoors playing with a bunch of kids and a
kid named Gary took a metal pole and hit me across my back. Right
across my kidney. Well, I continued playing outdoors and went in
for a bath. And when I was in the bathtub I began to urinate
blood. Now, my mom called the doctor, I guess. I remember being
in the emergency room in the hospital and the doctors being very
concerned. My dad was at work and he came in, and I remember him
wearing a white shirt and tie. I was 4-years-old and this is
still vivid in my memory. They're working on me in the emergency
room, a doctor cuts into my foot so he can cram a tube in me. I
was bleeding internally and they were running dyes through my
arteries and veins to find out where I was bleeding and they were
pushing my dad out of the room. It was just like that scene on
the TV show, E.R., with the curtains pulled. The doctors and
nurses working on me to see where I'm bleeding on the inside and
they were saying to my dad, "You can't be in here now,
sir-you can't be in here now, sir." And I'm yelling,
"Daddy! Daddy!" He reaches and the doctors and nurses
are pushing him back because they're cutting me with a scalpel
and shoving tubing through me. He reaches in his pocket and finds
a fountain pen and he reaches in his other pocket and finds a
handkerchief. And he hands both of these two items to me and
says, "Son, I want you to know I am here even if you don't
see me. I will not leave you, I am here." Now all night
along, I held in one hand the pen and in the other hand the
handkerchief. Remember the old fountain pens and the metallic
smell they left on your hands? I still remember the metallic
smell of that old fountain pen that I clung to all night long.
That night, all I could remember, as they were cutting me, the
tubes and all the things a four year old doesn't understand, is
that my dad said to me, "I am here." And even though I
knew I did not see my father, I had that pen and handkerchief and
I knew he was there.
Do you know
every time we take communion the cup and the bread is like the
pen and handkerchief? 'I am here. Nothing can separate you from
my love. Regardless of how you failed, I am going nowhere.'
Trust God's
Purpose
David could trust getting honest with
God because he trusted His love. Can you imagine that kind of
love? Why would I ever want to keep that kind of love at arms
distance? I want to get to the bottom of that kind of stuff. I
don't want to be here on the surface. I want to get to the bottom
of a God who loves me that much. David could risk getting honest
because not only did he trust God's love, he trusted God's
purpose. He trusted what God wanted to do with his life and what
He wanted to make of David.
Feelings
Now, you and I put too much emphasis on feelings. We
live in an age of sensation and we think that if you don't feel
it, then it is not authentic. Especially in love and marriage.
Well, I don't feel in love, so it must not be love. That's what
sensation is, too much emphasis on feelings. If we don't feel it,
then it's not authentic. Do you know that many times feelings are
great liars? Remember all the times you thought you were in love?
Aren't you glad you didn't marry what you thought you were in
love with? I remember one time I was about my son's age, probably
in about the tenth grade, and I met this girl at a football game.
I walked her home, quite an innocent thing, and I held her hand.
I remember feeling something the next day, and at the time I
thought it was love. Looking back at it, I think it was the flu.
You see, feelings can be great liars. Reality is not in what I
feel. Reality is not in what I get. Reality is the purpose and
will of God.
This past
week, on Tuesday, I finished my book. In some ways, sometimes I
feel like I'm burning the candle at both ends. Even on vacation,
I spent four weeks of the vacation writing and I said to Carolyn,
"I can't wait to get back to work because at least when I am
at work I take my 'day off' - off!" And I was using Mondays
on my vacation to write. And when I finished writing my book, I
was tired. Carolyn teaches a class, which is part of the Women's
ministry, on Wednesday nights. We were back from our vacation and
Carolyn went to the South Campus to teach her class. I was tired
and I needed and wanted to go to bed. Before she left, she was
caring enough to leave a pot of pasta that she had made on the
stove. When she got home, it was still there. She came upstairs
and she said, "You know, I really kind of feel taken
advantage of because you and Jonathan ate the food. I come home
late and the pot is still on the stove and the dishes are not in
the dishwasher. It's as if you expected me to wait on you
guys." Now, I'm lying there listening and thinking on the
inside, "I don't want to hear this stuff. I don't need to be
parented" - you know what I mean. This happens in our
marriages when one says to the other, "I don't feel
understood." Now reality is not what I feel, right? I feel
misunderstood. Reality is not in what I get. I need to get out of
doing the dishes. Reality is in God's truth.
Ephesians 5:25
25: Husbands,
love your wives, as Christ loved the church and gave himself up
for her,

Look at a verse in Ephesians 5 with me,
especially the men. We always hear this: Wives submit to your
husbands, and we'll quote that one. But we don't quote this one:
Husbands love your wives as Christ loved the church and gave
himself for her. It says nothing about what I feel or about what
I get. Here is God's truth. I was not serving my wife. Any of you
been there? Time to get honest. Time to get below the surface. We
place too much emphasis on feelings. Reality is not what I feel.
Reality is not what I get. Reality is God's will and purpose.
Broken Spirit
Psalms 51:16-17
16: For thou hast no delight in
sacrifice; were I to give a burnt offering, thou wouldst not be
pleased.
17: The sacrifice acceptable to God is a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.
Now I want you to look at what David
did. He trusted God's purpose. Let's read verses 16 and 17 of
Psalms 51-here's God's purpose. "For you have no delight in
sacrifice," David says to God, "If I were to give a
burnt offering, you would not be pleased." Now what he's
talking about there is religious activity. Too many times we stay
on the surface and we do religious things. We get involved in
Bible studies and that can be good. But if that's all you're
doing, God wants more than that. We come to church, we give our
money, we work and we even do some little things for God like
teach a Sunday School class or sing in the choir. God says,
"I want more than that." Get beyond religious acts. Now
look at the next verse, look at verse 17, here's what God wants:
The sacrifice acceptable to God is a broken spirit. Circle broken
spirit if you are following along in your Bibles. "A broken
and contrite heart oh God, you will not despise."

Now what is a broken spirit? It is not a crushed
spirit that you read about in verse 8. A crushed spirit is the
depression which comes from being outside God's pleasure. It is
not shattered self-esteem. When I was a kid, I wanted a pony. One
of my relatives on a farm bought a pinto pony. I couldn't believe
it! My cousin and I, who is more like my little sister, we're
going to ride this pony. Every time we go to this farm we can
ride our pony, right? Wrong. I don't remember how old we were,
but my sister was in front and I was on the back. The problem
was, this pony was not trained. No one had ever ridden this pony.
I don't know if any of you have ever owned ponies, but ponies can
be mean. We couldn't even pet this pony because it would bite.
Now, do you know what? That's like hell for a kid. It's like
being in a toy store and not being able to touch anything. It was
terrible. We said we wanted a new pony. So you know what they
told us? There's nothing wrong with that pony its just never been
broken in. We said, "Well, break it in so we can ride
it." They said, "We're too big. You kids are gonna have
to break it in." You know what we did. We went out into that
pasture, they put a saddle on that pony and they put a bridle on
that pony. We got up on that pony and whoa, the first time, we
fell off. The second time - off. The third time - off. But the
fourth time, the pony was broken. That's a broken spirit. It
means to bridle. It means to harness. It means to be made useful
for God's purpose.
Matthew 21:2
2: saying to them, "Go into
the village opposite you, and immediately you will find an ass
tied, and a colt with her; untie them and bring them to me.

The Sunday before Jesus' crucifixion, He
says to his disciples, "Go to the village ahead and there
you will find a donkey." He says, "It is tied." Do
you know what tied means? Have any of you been to Israel? You can
find all kinds of wild jackasses running around because they have
never been broken. They are of no use. Jesus says this one is
tied, which means it's waiting, it's harnessed, it's bridled and
it is available for the Lord's use. He says, "When you get
there and you find this tied donkey, untie it. If anyone asks you
any questions, just say the Lord needs it."
Psalm 51:12-13
12: Restore
to me the joy of thy salvation, and uphold me with a willing
spirit.
13: Then I will teach transgressors thy ways, and
sinners will return to thee.

The Lord needs you. The Lord has a plan for
your life, but you need to be bridled. I love the way Mother
Teresa put it, she said, "I'm just a pencil in God's
hand." Isn't that great? It doesn't get any better than
that. It doesn't get any better than just being a pencil in the
Lord's hand. I want you to see two more verses. Look with me at
verses 12 and 13. "Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and sustain in me a willing spirit." Do you know what a
willing spirit is? A broken spirit, a bridled spirit. If I have a
broken spirit, a bridled spirit, then I will be able to teach
transgressors your ways. Not until I'm bridled will other people
be able to see the power of God in my life. Not until I am
broken, totally made available for God's purpose will other
people look to me and find Your healing power, God. You know
until you're broken, you'll always just be a reflection upon God,
instead of a reflection of God. Did you hear what I said? Until
you're broken you'll always be a reflection upon God instead of a
reflection of God. Why do you think most people don't take God
seriously? Because of what they see in people who claim to take
God seriously.

In the latest issue of Spin Magazine they went to
Pensacola, Florida, to investigate a movement of God's spirit.
Have any of you been reading in the paper what's happened in
Pensacola, Florida? Over 2 million people have come to Pensacola
in the past two years to Brownsville Assemblies Church to see
what God is doing. Apparently the Spirit is moving in a mighty
way. A writer by the name of Mark Shone who is a pre-Christian
person went there to write this article. For six days he went
every day in this church. People were standing outside waiting to
get in even when there was no more room. They came from all over
the world to see what's happening in this little church. Mark
went every day for six days to sit and look and write what he
saw. Now this is a secular, 'MTV' style magazine. He came as a
skeptic, but as he sat there, he began to ask - could this be
real? Could there be something to this God thing. And do you know
what he was most concerned with? How are these people treating
their neighbors. Do you know what the sign of the Spirit is?
"By this all people will know you're my disciples by the way
you love one another." It's not going to be by the way you
worship. Some people worship contemporary, some churches do it
rock and roll, some people do it with media, some people do it
with organs, some churches are boring, some churches are
exciting. It doesn't matter if you are boring or exciting. It
matters if you love. That's the sign of the Holy Spirit. That's
how people will be able to tell that God is in your midst. You
won't be mean and biting, unbroken, untrained. You'll be loving,
and you'll be available to other people for God's power and love
to come through. So he was there, this skeptic, and after being
there for six days writing for a secular magazine, he's wondering
could there be anything to this Good Shepherd. He met a man by
the name of Sandy and he began asking Sandy some really honest,
hard questions. On his last night, after Worship finished, he
leaves. He goes out into a gravel parking lot and he gets into
his car to drive away. His assignment is done and he'll drive to
the airport the next morning to fly home. Sandy comes over to his
car, bends down and says, "Hey, Mark, we're going to Shoneys
Restaurant, do you want to come with us?" Mark says,
"No, I'm tired, I've got an early flight. I need to go back
to my motel." Sandy, still stooped at his window, looks back
and says, "Mark, I've been thinking about that question you
asked about homosexuals. Can there be any stronger sign of God's
judgment on homosexuals than AIDS?" Hmmm. Now here's what he
wrote in Spin Magazine "With one cruel sentence, the spell
is broken. I pull out of the dusty lot so angry that my heart
races. After a week of trying to reconcile the Shepherd's
sweetness with the sheep's poison, I stop trying."

Oh, people, we believe in God. We work for God, but
were not broken. We're mean and we bite. Oh Lord, have mercy
according to your steadfast love. People, until you're broken
you'll always be a reflection upon God and people will never take
God seriously because of the poison they see in you. But the
moment you stand before God and you say, 'God I am not happy with
where I am. It is time to get honest, I recognize my shameless
deeds. I have been measuring truth by how I feel and what I get.
I have not served my wife. Oh Lord, my sin is ever before me.
Create in me a clean heart, Oh God, and renew a right spirit
within me so that when other people look at me they see You.' In
the name of Jesus, Amen.
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